thoughts

I'm using my dad's laptop to do homework because it works, but now I won't be able to google the pdf of my economics homework during the day to get the answers without doing it all the way through myself.

I've barely gotten anything done until the last minute. I'm too tired all the time. I get distracted and then I fall asleep without having done it. I can't fail any classes this semester because then I won't be able to do theatre and it's the only thing I care about.

I wish I weren't as good at telling when my dad has been drinking. It makes my mom sad. He slept on the couch last night and I don't know if it's because he felt guilty or because he was just tired and fell asleep out there. He does that sometimes.

I wish I were better. Just in general. I am so painfully inadequate and I can't really do anything about it.

My Math IA was due almost two weeks ago now and I still haven't done it. I wish I cared more.

I don't know what to do with my life, legit. I'm afraid to follow what I think I want to do because what if I'm not good enough and what if I'm wrong and what if I'm not happy.

I can't tell if I'm happy, or just too tired to be sad.